Which is More Hurtful?

Have you ever disappointed a friend? What happened? Have you tried to talked to your friend when you have disappointed him/her?

I did...

We used to be very close. We talked about different things...shared problems...asked for advise...or just plain laugh trip. Then, it was a month before she went back to Korea... She planned a farewell party. That time, she was very excited when she envited me to come to the party. It's going to be a pool party. I excitedly said yes! I told her to invite my co-teacher as well and she did...However, we still didn't know the exact date of the party.

1 week before the party, my co-teacher backed off. I became hesitant to go...I really wanted my closed co-teacher to come with me...We never talked about it after she invited me. 3 days before the event, other people who are joining the party confirmed if I was really going to the party. I told them "I don't know..." Then I decided not to come. The night before the party...My friend texted me..."You're coming with us in Laguna, right?" - I didn't reply...and that was the last text I received from her...

I couldn't explain the feeling I have when the day of the party came. I was with my baby that time....Actually my baby wanted me to come however I really didn't feel like going because a close friend of mine wasn't joining the party. She didn't text...I was not at ease...

Then the day came when we couldn't stop the time to see each other. I was nervous...I feel like I don't have the guts to face her...I did something wrong...I disappointed her...but I felt a little relieved when she didn't attend my class...whew! "Maybe she was still tired"... The next day I asked her other tutors if she attended their class...and she did... She just didn't attend my class... I felt sadness. It covered my whole being knowing that she was really disappointed at me or...worse... That day she did attend my class...I tried to talk to her about the reason why I didn't go...but I couldn't find the courage to open a conversation about it. We continue to study...she was cold...she made me feel that nothing is wrong thought I could really feel through the way she answered that there was really something wrong... She was very civil...we didn't talk about anything else besides the topics in the book.

Days past by....we continued to be that way. The excitement during her class faded as I talked to her and saw her poker face...It was devastating in my part. I really like her...as if I lost a sister...but still I couldn't open up to her. She looked like it's OK with her. Until the day came when she was about to go back to Korea, that issue was never resolved. It all ended with a kiss on the cheek...but I didn't even feel relieved about it. It just made my feeling even worse...

Which is more hurtful?... your friend told you that she is disappointed at you because you did something wrong...or... your friend just gonna make you feel that she was disappointed and never talk about it...